There have been recurring instances throughout my life that I stayed in whatever that reason might be there was frequency and routine.

Holding onto something until I couldn't any longer was not healthy, being able to tolerate situations until I hit rock bottom was no longer feasible 

I believe there is great commitment in hanging on but who is that really helping? Not me and it was actually not helping those around me either whether I led the situation on too long that stopped growth for the next person that stopped another entity from never learning 

I pushed down many emotions and feelings to make due of these situations

I now know from this last and hopefully final rock bottom moment that nothing is worth my peace the second my body showed that I was going against it is when I should have raised the white flag

No lifestyle, person, or job is worth interrupting the nervous system and staying in flight or fight

I am honored to have learned that I am committed to all that is in my path I am also concerned at how I was unable to put myself first